terça-feira, 6 de maio de 2014

Tomara




Desde que me aproximei da música, de fato como deveria ter feito aos quatorze anos e não agora, como adulto, houve uma avalanche de acontecimentos tão violenta e rápida que até me sinto a vontade de atribuir a culpa pela minha ausência dos textos.

E a principal mudança começou com aquele choque pós show. Quem me conhece – e até quem não me conhece, mas pode ver aqui neste blog – sabe que cada show lindo sempre foi uma tortura por carregar consigo uma força maior que vinha no dia seguinte, carregando uma tristeza indescritível. Daquelas de me derrubar mesmo.

A grande mudança está relacionada à intensidade dos fatos: se eu escolhi viver da minha música, não sobreviveria se ficasse mal a cada manhã seguinte. Não me torturaria desta forma. E foi então que parei de sentir a dor, acordava no dia seguinte com aquela sensação de missão cumprida, mas perdi o medo de que aquilo tudo um dia acabasse, perdi a emoção de ter movido o coração e o sentimento de tantas pessoas na noite anterior, perdi. Perdi tudo. 

Até o dia em que fiz um show maravilhoso. Forte, intenso, firme do começo ao fim. A banda estava maravilhosa, os graves todos fazendo tremer as estruturas – assim do jeito que eu gosto – e as vozes tão afinadas e potentes trazendo até lágrimas por trás dos aplausos. Um verdadeiro espetáculo!
E no outro dia não teve jeito. 

Foi então que percebi que deveria continuar, seguir tocando cada coração, provocando cada sorriso, seduzindo cada calor e só assim cumpriria a verdadeira missão da música: mudar tudo. Um espetáculo musical não vale nada se não mudar tudo na vida de alguém. Agora, isso vai acontecer toda noite? Depende de você.

Depende de mim.                                                                                                                      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